Maura Higgins in tears as she 'blamed herself for so long' for best friend's tragic death

Love Islander Maura Higgins admitted she blamed herself for the death of her best friend Andrew Rowan as she emotionally recalled the day of his motorbike accident

Love Island star Maura Higgins has emotionally opened up on her best friend's death that she blamed herself for.

The 33-year-old bravely reflected on the loss of her friend Andrew Rowan who died aged 26 when his motorbike was involved in a crash with three cars in Co Athlone, Ireland in 2017. She previously shared how Andrew's passing affected her own life and her personal outlook for the future as she realised just how short life can be.

Maura devastatingly shared she blamed herself for Andrew's death and still struggles with those feelings. "For so long I blamed myself for it because when I look back at that day, the day was so crazy," she said. "I can't work my head around it. He called me and he'd finished work early, which wasn't really meant to happen. He was like 'I have finished work early, lets grab some food'. I was like 'I can't be f***ed, I am still in my pyjamas I really can't be f***ed'."

Speaking to Paul Carrick Brunson on his We Need to Talk podcast, Maura explained: "I am not as bad as I was with it but I still think 'why didn't I just go with him'. He wouldn't have been on the motorbike, we would have been in his car, we would have got food and maybe the day would have been different."

She then became emotional as she opened up on her guilt. "I don't want to cry. I am so not a crier as well. I think I just beat myself up over it because it would have been different." Paul asked Maura if she truly blames herself to this day, to which she replied: "I just know it would have been different if I just got f***ing dressed and wasn't so lazy."

Maura revealed she had seen Andrew on the day he died. She shared: "I didn't go for the dinner but I still saw him that day. I will never forget him arriving on the bike and I remember straight away saying 'why are you on the bike?' He's not a biker and every time he was on it, I just didn't understand. I just didn't like it. He was like 'it's a great day, it is a lovely day outside'.

"I will never forget when he left he said he was going to take a drive on the bike. I went into the toilet and I could hear his motorbike and I got these shivers. I remember thinking to myself, 'Maura stop thinking bad'. Then a few hours later I get a phone call. It is such a weird day when I look back."

Recalling the moment she heard of Andrew's death, Maura admitted she didn't believe it. She called Andrew's phone "maybe 100 times" and confessed she "physically couldn't stop". Her ex boyfriend was the one to tell her the tragic news as she said she knew it was true "immediately" when she saw his face.

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